Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Alive
11:53 PM
I want to apologise to everyone i hurt, lied, disappointed, or made u feel worse....
But the thing is....
I don't dare to say it to your face....
I'm afraid that you would hate me....
If i ever did any of those...
I really did not mean it because i had to....
I hope i'll have the courage to help me to actually apologize to you....
I want a fresh start without changing the whole me....
There are things i regret not doing n things i had done....
Everywhere i go....
No matter where....
I sometimes feel that i don't belong....
I have people i care and people i despise....
I hate hypocrites but sometimes i am one myself....
I am not true to my heart sometimes....
So please forgive me....
I hate backstabbers....
I'm happy that i don't do that....
I hate liars....
But tell me...
Who in the world don't lie....
We do what humans can do....
We take it when the opportunity comes....
Cause we only live life once....
I feel that....
Every single human being has a small desire to do things that they can't imagine....
To be bad....
To be invincible....
I hate people who thinks that other people are losers...
Shits...
Unimportant....
Useless....
FYI....
Nobody's perfect....
Life is beautiful if you know the way to see how's life is suppose to be....
You decide....
I hate my life so much that i love it....
Hard to explain but yeah....
I hate the word Fuck....
But i, myself use it....
I may seem okay....
But deep inside i am,was, always bleeding....
I may seem fragile....
But i am strong....
I may seem fun....
But i am trying....
I may seem lesbian....
But i am in love with a guy....
I may seem right....
But i am lost....
I may be polite....
But i am rude....
I may be me....
But i certainly don' wanna be you....
Life's so unpredictable....
I cant imagine being hurt by the one's i love....
I cant imagine the ones i hate will be there for me....
So there's life...
As life is always bouncing up and down....
But all i want to say is....
Life is precious....
I treasure it always....
I only can FEEL when i have life....
Cause not existing in this world would suck....
No matter who you are, where you are, what you do....
Always listen to your heart....
Where life is what you want it to be....